15.

Oh yeah, and yesterday was my birthday and I'm finally 15! wooo!

Parents suck.

I hate my parents sometimes. Tomorrow night I am being dragged unwillingly to a family friends 50th birthday party. It doesn't sound that bad, but trust me it is. This family have a 7 year old devil child who scares the shit out of me, she will litterally beat you up if she feels like it, and she is freakishly strong. Plus the fact that on the invite it says that the party will be 'partylicious'. I'm just hoping there will be enough people there that they wont notice if I sink into a corner and text all night. Ugh, just kill me.

Just arrived in the french alps, which just happens to be the place for mountain biking in the summer, which means it's full of testosorone fueled teenage boys - I think I'm gonna like it here;)

I've gone AWOL.

I know I have broken my promise of blogging every day, but I've been kinda busy socialising before I go to France. Which I am not dreading so much any more because my parents have finally given in and I'm taking a friend with me. But it was only a matter of time, I mean c'mon, they rented a six double bedroom chalet complete with cinema suite and hot tub, and there's only five people in my family. It would be just greedy if we didn't share it with others. So what have I done in the past week, well I have spent just about every night at T's house. Oh yeah, and I met some guys. But it's nothing exiting, much to my disapointment I don't think any of them will be a relationship possibility. I met them on friday at monmouth music festival - Europe's biggest free music festival, which ironically is probably Europe's only free music festival, so it's crap. So you have to make your own fun, so the teenagers come in in swarms and everyone gets wrecked, that makes it awesome. So one guy out of the guys I met stood out for me, but guess what? He likes my best friend. Isn't that always how it is? You finally meet a guy who is everything you want (he's unserious, funny, hot - exactly what I want at 15) but he has absolutely no interest in you. It took him like 4 days to even add me on facebook, whereas he added my best friend about an hour after we left the festival, he also got her number. Fucking great. It's time's like these where my heavily dented self esteem takes another bashing. I really don't understand why I am so unlucky, I mean I'm not really unfortunate looking, sure I'm not exactly super-model stunning, but who is? Ugh, oh well, as cheesy as it is... at least I have my friends. I just wish the guys in my school's brother school weren''t such bellends. Then I wouldn't have to go looking for guys! Ah, the joys of being a teenage girl.

Because I'm feeling a little bit emotional.

how much would it suck if you didnt have friends? i mean seriously, you would have no one to bitch about people to, no one to talk about boys with, no one to tell you if what you're wearimg looks shit. it would well and truly suck. last night i had a girly sleepover with my crew, i gotta say, i kinda do reckon that a sleepover is better than like going to a partty, call me gay or whatever. But seriously, i really really love my friends. I think i'm having an emotional moment. but all you people out there without friends, get some, They're awesome.

My head is stuck in the clouds
She begs me to come down
Says “Boy quit foolin’ around”
I told her “I love the view from up here
The warm sun and wind in my ear
We’ll watch the world from above
As it turns to the rhythm of love”

We may only have tonight
But till the morning sun you’re mine all mine
Play the Music low 
and sway to the rhythm of love
Rhythm of love - plain white T's


another song I just can't get out of my head ><

Truth or dare?

Last night was probably one of the most traumatic nights of my life. I went over T's house with two other guys, I don't really know them that well, but T does so. But anyway, after a while of trying to decide what to do, we decided to indulge in a game of truth or dare. I just wanna point out that these guys aren't good looking - like at all, not one bit. But by the end of the night I had been tea-bagged, cock slapped, motor boated and a whole lot of other things I don't even wanna think about. I honest to God think I'm scarred for life now. This morning I got outa there as fast as I could. Oh, and we were kinda drunk, it wasn't just a sober entertainment thing:L but still, ugh, I shudder thinking about it. T did some pretty bad stuff too mind. Meh, I'm sure we'll all laugh about it in a year or so. Although I don't think I can ever face the two guys ever again. I am going to crawl into my bed now until the embarrassment wears off... or just until tomorrow night when I have a party to go to. My summer better start improving soon, I've only got less than two weeks until I'm off to France, and I've only just come back from Portugal last Thursday so I really need to start socialising more while I have the time, I don't think spending all my time at T's house watching tv is doing much for my social standing. Better go start planning some stuff, chow for now.

Because I died my hair lighter :)

awkward.

http://www.mtv.com/shows/awkward/series.jhtml
Because I just started to watch this show, and it's pretty darn awesome.

Help please!

Right, does anyone know how you add that music thing to your blog? You know when you go on someone's blog and they have that little like play button thing and it plays music?:L Well you know what I mean. Does anyone know how you get it on your blog? I have been fiddling around for ages trying to work out how to do it. But I failed ICT. Anyone know how to? Cheeers ma dears.

My headmistress' message to all of us on the last day of term. What a bloody wanker.

Tell me what you want to hear
Something that were like those years
I'm sick of all the insincere
So I'm gonna give all my secrets away
This time
Don't need another perfect lie
Don't care if critics ever jump in line
I'm Gonna give all my secrets away..
(8) one republic - secrets


Ugh, I know its old and all that shazz
but I cannot get that song out of my head ><

Ah summer love.

My best friend (or one of them) has just got back from a holiday in Spain and has found 'summer love'. I know I should be happy for her and blah blah blah, but seriously!? I don't even make as much as a new friend when I go on holiday and she's found frickin' love. God damn it. I feel like crawling into a ball of denial. There are over six billion people in this world and I can't even find a boy my age that even likes me. Ugh. Life sucks. Oh look at that, she just came up on my facebook chat freaking out because he came online. I WANT TO FREAK OUT WHEN SOMEONE I LIKE COMES ONLINE. ugh. What makes this suck even more is that I don't even know any guys that I would even consider starting anything up with! And trust me, I do not have low standards, it's just the guys that live where are live are very very low standard wise. So please, anyone out there? Make a girl happy. All interested apply. Ugh. Love+Life? what a joke.

What happens at the campout stays at the campout

So, as I said last night I went to a camp out with one of my friends. I didn't really know the guy who was having the camp out but he was good friends with T. When we first got there there were about 7 of us sat very awkwardly on the village wreck, I have a feeling that this was because me and T were there and they didn't know us very well. The guy who's camp out it was expected about 50 people to turn up but it ended up to be only about 20. I did feel quite bad for him, he was pretty darn upset, but luckily after about an hour he decided to drown his sorrows with alcohol and that's when the party started to get good. There was one incredibly attractive guy there, being me though I didn't have the guts to strike up a conversation with him. There was one other guy there who was pretty hot, but unfortunately he was the reason the camp out went downhill pretty quickly.  After about an hour, we heard screams from the forest, and the hot guy had beaten up his girlfriend and legged it. His gf was pretty shaken up about it, but apparently it had happened before (you kinda wonder why they're still together), but anyway apparently that's how he gets when he drinks alcohol. So after that everyone went looking for him, and then went home. And that was it, not even a goodbye to the guy who was having the party. So me, T, the guy who's party it was and one of his friends went back to his house and hung out for a bit before me and T went home. It sucked that it ended so badly because it was actually pretty good. I didn't even get to lay any groundwork on the nice hot guy (the one that didn't beat up his girlfriend). But after that abrupt ending, I am so in the need for a party. Ugh, summer sucks so far.